Last day

31st March 2009,

last day of the financial year....

-balancing

-hiding

-saving

-correcting

-calculating

1st April 2009,

start of the new financial year....

-forecasting

-targeting

-planning

-developing

-calculating

Today we toast..

A celebration was more cheerful, when you didn’t understand why the party,
all u cared about was, you have the knife that will cut the cake…
all u knew was, that no one else gets to open the gifts….

A meal was more satisfying when you didn’t know the nutrition value,
all u cared about was, you have to finish your food before your sibling….
all u knew was, you have to chew 32 times per bite….

Dancing was more passionate when you didn’t know about the forms,
all u knew was, that you didn’t care who was looking….
all u cared about was you can hear a beat that tell your body to move….

Sleeping was more refreshing when you didn’t know how many hours make a ideal sleep,
all u knew was, that you didn’t care when u have to wake up….
all u cared about was you have a hand patting on ur back….

We crawled, as infants…. Bruising here and there
We ran, a toddlers….  Falling here and there
I swam, as a kid…. Gasping now and then
I drove, as a boy…. Bumping now and then
You expected, as a adult…. Failing here and there,
You expected, as a man…. Failing, Bumping, Gasping, Falling, Bruising all the time.

The same bruise today, horrifies us
The same fall today, embarrasses us
Gasping today is unacceptable
Bumping today is not allowed
The same expecting today is not expected..

Love was more romantic when we didn’t know when valentines was,
all u didn’t know was, what expectations meant….
all u didn’t care about was, what you get in return….

Lived yesterday like there is no tomorrow,
try to live tomorrow like there was no yesterday..
in the mean while learn to Live today|

Expressions - a run in the woods

Control

the volume of light and brightness of the music..

Adjust
the transparency of a painting and the color of the mirror (glass)..

Observe
the beauty of the bulls-eye and the focus on the peacock feather.. 

Absorb
The rays of the wind and the chill-waves of the sun..

Differentiate
The freshness of a morning coffee and the addiction of a morning jog..

Learn
the self-control of technology and the shelf-life of the brain..

Forget
the kissing of your wounds and the healing of your love..

Relish
the side-effects of a heavy balance sheet and the beauty of the make-up box..

Capture
the motive of the diamond and the glitter of the walk..

Respect
the stubbornness of the beautiful sunflower and the magnetivity of a cute ass..

Acknowledge
the high (trance) of the super-natural and the powers of alcohol..

Balance
the darkness of our democracy and the voice of our shadow..

Imagine
…… but nothing

WISH / HOPE / WANT / REALISE-
You enjoy life or Life enjoys you..
You control habits or Habits control you..
You lead the way or the Way leads you!

WANT

Life is not so bad after-all,

if you know what you want..

and you know what to want.

Listen to the silence,

Beat without fear;

buy without a license,

smell of the ones so dear.

Too much for a want

Too less for a no you CAN'T.

every|

Every word has a hidden meaning

Every hidden meaning has weight

Every weight has its own special place on the scale of self-interest|

COLOR..

रंग् तेरी आखों मैं है,

गुलाल् का कोइ रंग् नहीं....

ना खून् को पता,

न गुलाब् को पता,

न किसी से पुछा कभि..

सिर्फ़् काटों ने है रखा है ये हिसाब् सभी.....

Color knows no color.... everything becomes invisible after crossing the range of sight!!

HO GAYA HAI..

Maana ki jo hua hai
Wo tune bhi kiya hai
Inhone ne bhi kiya hai
Unhone ne bhi kiya hai

Maana ki tune..haan haan
Chahaa nahi tha lekin
Tu jaanta nahi ki ye kaise ho gaya hai

Lekin tu phir bhi sunle
Nahi sunega koi
Tujhe ye saari duniya kha jayegi
Nigal ke.

-lyrics from RAAT KE MUSAFIR, song from Gulaal

where

Lost am i..

Beyond what meets the eye.

Everything that has a dead line

i seem to be allowing to die.

i keep the music so loud

that i cant hear my own thoughts,

i try and look so far

that i cant see the step called "next"

2009, the year of change

It’s a week n little more into this new year
too new than anything I could have imagined
been weak n little more
too strong than I had even imagined

Change is the only thing constant in life,
I always believed strongly
didn’t know a day will come when
being constant will be the only change

The captain of the ship
is the most saluted man on-board
not because he has the maximum stars on his uniform
but cause he has the maximum control load

I will be the captain,
of this vessel called ME
am still looking for the controls,
direction is not yet a choice

I can see the star which I wish to follow n be
that is all I am sure off
this ball of light, is the power house
which I keep drifting away from
while trying to get closer by the moment
the waves of time and the turbulence of wants

I don’t leave a trail, I foresee no path
decimal degree of error, not welcome
fractional changes not easy to make
am a sole traveler each time I divert off the path
lucky to find atleast the voice of A navigator at times……

the current was strong,
already been drifting off, for quite long
not anymore

distortion killer

everytime i am in my thinking mode,
lets say a state of peace,
or a state of high...
i wish i had some fancy gaget that would record my thoughts,
as it so many times happens,
that i forget wat i meant by the time i convert the energy of my thought into energy named sound.......
and i shall name it "the thought distortion killer"......

CHUDDI BUDDIES WEDDING

Thunder struck with the wonderful effect of lightening so bright
Rained heavy, to get us all dancing in it
no stone left unturned
no drink left undrunk
Rainbow,  at night I guess it is rare
It had four colors, the max our pockets could bare
‘ishq kamina’ was the song
being 1^st timers, somethings even went wrong
most importantly it was an orgasm all night long

 This was just the start of the big fat panju wedding

lots of things that went down tumbling

From unlimited bottles of beer
to scotch with soda to cheer
where ex girl-friends come and dance without fear

Friends flying in from far, from not...
some super cold, some purely hot

Day started with beer brunch
surely 3 more sessions to go post lunch
managing some work, between this time crunch

The stealer was the cocktail night
the music was talking to the light
and the dance floor conquered by the kings’ knights

Some black out and some sleep on the floor
still every one is on time for fun galore

drawing room check
band bajao
aare ghodi pe chadao,

Pre mixes check
head banging on the dhol,
u don’t worry, thats our role

phera bag check
sit on sofa at the stage,
come steel the shoes if u have got the rage
 

rajpath bag check
6 to baj gaye aab to kya karega room mai jaa ke
soo jate hai yahe do chaar lagake

If your back hurts and neck acts as if it’s actually wired
you have done nothing that can get you tired
so get up sweetheart be at office or you are fired

Detox, today and till another tomorrow
when u feel the fun and the sorrow

"It has already happened" I hear from some.
"It cannot have already happened" says my memory “it’s just my illusion, its a morning dream”
At last – the photographs and the videos yield, saying “Yes the Nagpal dream has come true!!”

is it?

….. it is so,
Trust me today, or u shall believe it tomorrow.

It is a thought from the past of a conversation about the future,
if only this recurring thought could be controlled, would it actually be called living in the present….

For securing the next step, the ‘aha’ moment of now becomes not so important,
well not a lot can be done about it, cause its none other who is at the gaining or the losing end,
surely can be suggested as a very selfish thought, never the less a perception un-defined….

Life consists of 3 pillars, the yesterday, today and tomorrow,
most of today is spent correcting the yesterday, no doubt it being the best that could be done in that situation;
and the rest in forecasting what can be the available problems tomorrow and the safer option.

Lets consider the success of this plan now. But the result

TOUCH OF GOLD

“I touch gold n it turns copper!!”, he said
She looked but didn’t react,

He repeated his words, she simply ignored….
once more and that was it, as soon as he started
“whatever I touch……”
She brought up her hand and said 2 words “touch this”
He didn’t understand
she said again “touch this”, pointing at a ring in the thick of her hand….
and continued even before he could react
“ touch this and lets c if this turns copper”

She pulled his hand and made him touch the diamond and the gold,
“will this turn copper now….”  She asked expecting no reply
“if it had turned copper, it was not pure….
Never say this again and of yourself be sure!!”

A silence followed,
It felt good
Brought a smile back on the face of my heart.

I have faith in her,
I sure do,
I will pray to god, please make her statement true,
cause only I know
While reaching for the ring I touched her too.

CHESS LIFE!!

Life is but a complex chess board,

Where the colour options are unlimited

No one knows why thy has been created

but one who controls does have a plan

researching of the past is all you can….

The ones with corporate buildings, may be are the elephants,

Some with private choppers, like the queen they shunt.

Pawns are the normal rest that are left to battle

For their Belief /value/God or so to say the king,

For the king of the chess board they run / kill n die

Each game is new life, not everyone gets a chance to be the same

Well none will even know the relation of the last n the one to come.

Not even the king is all we fight for

Cause the king itself can’t move on its own for sure

So here is a power that’s making the pieces move

And all in ur life u can is wait for that power

To make u move or sacrifice……

CONSTANT CHANGE

Ateet-Fashion Choreographer.

That was then, this is now.
What was I and what have I become, I don't know how?
Change is the only thing CONSTANT now,
Easy going was life, has become ambitious now.
Deadlines are to be met, goals are to be achieved, God knows how?

Out of the small window; all that we could see, was all we knew
Now the location has changed and everything around seems so new.
Changed has the time; so have we,
Had never imagined it to be at this degree.

The wine is still the same; just the glasses have changed,
And I guess that's the reason why, only matured wines are framed....

Mr. Bajaj
Director - International Business

SWIM & DIVE

I learnt to swim after diving!!

The journey, I started a year back

But I didn’t know what I was climbing.

Learning a few controls n little about the steering;

Now atleast I can move in the direction I am driving..

 

Am I leading the way

Or is the way leading me

Surely is a thing worth finding.

If I am leading the way

Then how far have I reached from the starting.

And if the way is leading me

Then how far away can I see the ending.

 

They say “You tend to forget the bruises

That you got while crawling once you start running.”

Over the fire and the ice

As of now I am crawling.

And with the support of a stick called time

Am trying to get-up and start walking.

 

The day will soon come when not only

Will I be running with the best

But also racing!!